~[ How do I Live Without you ]~

[AkiTorrien]

This is another story that I wrote last year. I though I would share it all with you guys. Enjoy ^_^

~*~ Notes ~*~
The green text is from a song called "How do I live without you"
The Blue Violet text at the end of the story is from a song called "The time has come"
and the red text is what the news reporter said.

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It was two months after My best friends wedding, and life has still been the same. I am yet still single, I am a fool I tell you, I had the perfect chance to tell the guy I like how I feel, But I got nervous and backed out of it. My best friend is still happy which is good, My cousin is still the same and life is pretty much as always. Sadly, Lately our Alpha Omega passed away and we are looking for someone to take his place. I am not a high enough rank to rank to apply.

It was a warm September morning. Fall was approaching yet the weather was still nice. I looked out my window and sighed alittle. I did feel kinda lonely I didn't have someone to call My own. I wish I did, but I wasn't going to force anything. It wouldn't be right. My ears twitched and I looked outside. I smiled Seeing My best friend and her husband returning from a training Session. Oh yeah! My best friend was moved up to top of class. Which I am not surprised. My ears twitched as I heard some commotion going on. I walked out of My quarters and walked over to the crowd of people. My friend ran to me smiling.

"Whats going on?" I asked looking at her.
"They found someone to take the Alpha's place" She said looking at me alittle worriedly.
"Whats wrong? Why do you look sad...is it someone we know?" I asked not liking the look on her face.
"I'm...afraid so..." She said sadly.

I looked at her, thinking on who it could be, I decided to go and check it out for My self. I walked over to the HQ's building were all the higher ups had their meetings. I stopped when I heard a bunch of people talking. My ears twitched hearing a familiar voice. I smiled and wagged my tail. The guy I liked was in their talking. I felt bad listening but i had to find out for myself who had been chosen. I knew that who ever was chosen would have to leave for a year to go train and a special base far away. I training there was very tough and is designed to see if you have it in you. I over heard them talking for a while. When suddenly I over heard who was chosen. My heart dropped, My eyes widened and My ears folded over. I shock my head in disbelief.

"Noooo...why? please...noo.."

I though to myself before walking away with my head hung down low, my bangs covering my eyes, My ears folded over. I continued to walk untill I arrived outside again. I walked past my friend, I knew she was going to tell me something but I just kept on walking. I looked down and Sighed as a tear fell from my eyes. It was the next morning, the morning I really didn't want to come. This would be the morning I had to say good bye. Has it ever occurred to anyone that saying good bye is the hardest thing in the world to say. I walked outside and saw My best friend standing there, with her husband of course. I looked at him, saw the smiles on their faces, they were so happy together. I doubt I would ever be that happy. I sighed and walked over to them.

"Good Morning Guys." I said Looking over, seeing the others ready to leave.
"Good Morning Kyiona." My best friend said to me, alittle sad but still with a smile on her face.
"Morning Kyiona." The husband said looking at me and then his wife.

I turned my attention over to the others, the ones who were about to leave. My ears folded over and I looked down. It was hard to make Eye contact right now. I tried to hid my tears behind the bangs in my eyes. I looked Up alittle, and saw they were about to leave. I started shaking, My face turned alittle pale. As I watched them leave, the crowd soon vanished as they faded away out of the gates and into the forest behind the base.The only ones left were me, My best friend and her husband. I sighed as we began heading back inside. I stopped and looks down. I closed My eyes turned around and ran of the other way, after the others.

How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life

I raced out of the gates and into the forest, not looking back. As I ran the tears fell from my eyes. I ran though the thicket, passing trees, animals. Thoughts raced though my mind, thoughts about everything. My life has changed so dramatically lately, I couldn't lose a thing. I was hoping to find them, and maybe have the courage to confess how I feel. I continued to run, I ended up tripping over a log landing face first. My ears folded over as I laid there for a moment, drifting in and out of reality.

And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

I looked around for a moment and panted laying on the ground. I got up and continued to run, tears still flowing out of my eyes.

I cant live like this...I have to let him know...I have to..

The tears kept flowing, al I though about was how am I going to live with out him here with me. I need him. He is my world..he is the only person that I love...I know I have great friends who care for me and want whats best fro me. I have great friends who look out for me, friends who really care for me. But this person is someone who I love. The last person who I loved was ripped away from before we were unable to get married and now I have the fear of losing him to. I continued running though the forest.

Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life

I closed My eyes as I ran, memories from my childhood started to flash though my mind, as My thoughts drifted in and out of my mind. I remember the promise that was made to me, Our training together and how close as friends we were. I opened My eyes and Looked up ahead. I picked up his scent and picked up my speed running after the scent. I wasn't fallowing his scent I was fallowing my heart. I came upon a ledge, looking down I saw the group of them walking. I jumped down and ran up to them, running though them I saw him, with out even seeing a hello I just ran to him and hugged him tight, crying. I was unable to keep my tears in. He turned to me and looked down at me as I held onto him.

"Kyiona..What are you doing here.?"
"I didn't want to see you go...not without a good bye."
"Whats wrong? Why are you crying?"
"Please..please..Please don't go..."
"I have to go...I am sorry."
"Then..i want you to know something.."
"What is it?"
"I...I...I..love you

He looked down at me and stared at me for a bit before he wrapped his arms around me pulling him into him. My ears folded over and i still cried into him alittle. He held me tighter and placed his hand ontop of my ears stroking them calmly. He smiled and held me.

"Please don't cry."
"I just..I don't want anything to happen..what if I lose you."
"You wouldn't lose me, I promise...when I return in a year I will always stay by your side, I promise."
"Thank you.."
"You are welcome"

He let go of me and looked at me as I looked at him back, he smiled and kissed my lips, I returned the kiss and blushed. We pulled away and looked at each other again. Then he smiled, turned around and walked of. I stood there for a minute and smiled happily. I turned around and ran of, little did I know...that would be the last time I would see him again.

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Two months have passed since he left and I still miss him dearly. It was a cold winters morning now and nothing really was happening. My ears twitched, I heard a crowd of people running though the halls down the mess hall. I looked at them and though it was weird. I got up and ran after them. I stopped when i saw people crowed around a tv. I wondered what was going on. I walked over and seen that the news was one. Weird, usually nodt alot of people watched the news in a crowd this big. I looked at the news reporter, wondering what he was saying.

"Earlier last night around 5am the alarms went off at the base in the middle of the forest. They were being attacked that the terrorizing Demon lord Dragonay. A group of people from the Eastern Base stood up agasint him, unfortunately...their were no survivors and Dragonay had escaped."

My eyes widened hearing the news..I stood there in shock for a minute, my mind drifting out of reality as I turned a pale white ghost color. I shock my head and turned to the others, My eyes had turned emotionless. My ears folded over and I turned around and walked of. Not noticing anything around me, as if time had stopped. My heart stopped and I just died inside.

The time has come
It's for the best I know it
Who could've guessed that you and I...
Somehow, some way
We'd have to say goodbye.

Somehow today...
...we have to say goodbye

[runt32a]

thats really good sad happy emotional really good i couldnt stop reading it til i finished reading it its really good aki

[Shadower]

It really good, you put great emotion in it, the end make me so sad.

[starscream]

Good Gosh tear my emotions apart why don't cha.

[ricecake]

Very good Aki. The ending was soo sad!!!! I really cant wait to read more, keep up the awesome work!

[AkiTorrien]

Well that was the end of that story.

[savke1989]

make a twist ^^

[AkiTorrien]

Originally Posted by savke1989

make a twist ^^

nah XD I like how it ends...though at one point I was going to make a sequel to it but I decided I wanted to end it the way it was.

[savke1989]

Originally Posted by AkiTorrien

nah XD I like how it ends...though at one point I was going to make a sequel to it but I decided I wanted to end it the way it was.

pooper

[Bobadoe]

Awww......From the ultimate high..... to the abysmal low....

A roller coaster ride of emotion and thought with tracks in all directions...

Mind and soul tugging at the fabric of existence.

...I really do noe know what I just said....But very well done.

Another Heavy Hitter in the emotion department by our own AkiTorrien.