Ariya
03-09-2008, 01:26 AM
Okay, so I really need to vent right now...and I'll do it by writing a Mind Mirror. And yeah, maybe a little advice, if you can understand it.
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The truth of the lie. Lie in the truth. You are confused. Your mind has broke. Your body will be next. Twist, crack, hear those bones snap. Little girl with the devil's wish.
Your being brings tears to these demonic eyes.
Your heart's slowing, you better put some ice. Rather be alive than care at all. You're the spider, just escaped from the cage. Go on and taint some others, spread some new disease. Act like you're the plague. You're just another wannabe. Serial killer, rapist, druggie, klepto, no, you're no mastermind. You'll be put down soon enough.
So you know yourself. Well I know you better. You'll find a way, some way, just think you'll be happy. This is what you want. This is everything, it's fairytale magic. It's a movie. Facade. This is your life. Stop living in a dream. I can't stand by you anymore. I can't watch over you. While you sleep so peacefully, oblivious to the world. I won't protect you anymore. I've done all I can do and now it's time I defend myself.
Need more anesthesia for these wounds. Turn my life upside down. We're fighting on the walls. Tear apart the armor, I can finally see. I'm no longer blind and you're no longer masked. I see your scars. So what's your story. Reveal yourself to me. Let me help you relive that pain.
Hurt him. Now you're set to be buried in your skin. I will peel you. Your body into scraps. No longer human. Unrecognizable. How beautiful. I'm a plastic surgeon. Ready to operate.
So she's awoken. Now she runs. This is what the world really looks like. Run, hide. The suffering will find you. You're made to be trapped here. But there is one escape. Oh, do fear. I've been there. It comes with hurt and a free trip to hell. But that's not for you, you're trying to be innocent. Innocence: tainted. Your life is a lie. You try to hide. You can't hide from me. You've shown yourself to me. I know what you are. This is not you. I hate this. I loved you. But you're lost to yourself. To me. I can't save you. I can't save anyone. You need me. You need me to think that I need you. Without me you're nothing. You're no one. Take off your disguise. Everyone hates this. You're trying too hard. Give it up. You were an angel. And now you're no good, I hate you.
Why. Why can't you feel me. I'd do anything for you. Just tell me what you want. I'm sorry I'm not good enough. I'm sorry I can't make you happy. I don't know how. I'm worthless. I'm useless. Why keep me. Why. You're better off without me. So I will end me. I love you. Be happy. I'll be gone soon. Be happy. I love you.
I need you. You don't need me. I want you to need me. I want to be the one that makes you happy. The only one. I want to be all you need. I want to be all you want. I need to be your everything. But why would you choose me.
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The truth of the lie. Lie in the truth. You are confused. Your mind has broke. Your body will be next. Twist, crack, hear those bones snap. Little girl with the devil's wish.
Your being brings tears to these demonic eyes.
Your heart's slowing, you better put some ice. Rather be alive than care at all. You're the spider, just escaped from the cage. Go on and taint some others, spread some new disease. Act like you're the plague. You're just another wannabe. Serial killer, rapist, druggie, klepto, no, you're no mastermind. You'll be put down soon enough.
So you know yourself. Well I know you better. You'll find a way, some way, just think you'll be happy. This is what you want. This is everything, it's fairytale magic. It's a movie. Facade. This is your life. Stop living in a dream. I can't stand by you anymore. I can't watch over you. While you sleep so peacefully, oblivious to the world. I won't protect you anymore. I've done all I can do and now it's time I defend myself.
Need more anesthesia for these wounds. Turn my life upside down. We're fighting on the walls. Tear apart the armor, I can finally see. I'm no longer blind and you're no longer masked. I see your scars. So what's your story. Reveal yourself to me. Let me help you relive that pain.
Hurt him. Now you're set to be buried in your skin. I will peel you. Your body into scraps. No longer human. Unrecognizable. How beautiful. I'm a plastic surgeon. Ready to operate.
So she's awoken. Now she runs. This is what the world really looks like. Run, hide. The suffering will find you. You're made to be trapped here. But there is one escape. Oh, do fear. I've been there. It comes with hurt and a free trip to hell. But that's not for you, you're trying to be innocent. Innocence: tainted. Your life is a lie. You try to hide. You can't hide from me. You've shown yourself to me. I know what you are. This is not you. I hate this. I loved you. But you're lost to yourself. To me. I can't save you. I can't save anyone. You need me. You need me to think that I need you. Without me you're nothing. You're no one. Take off your disguise. Everyone hates this. You're trying too hard. Give it up. You were an angel. And now you're no good, I hate you.
Why. Why can't you feel me. I'd do anything for you. Just tell me what you want. I'm sorry I'm not good enough. I'm sorry I can't make you happy. I don't know how. I'm worthless. I'm useless. Why keep me. Why. You're better off without me. So I will end me. I love you. Be happy. I'll be gone soon. Be happy. I love you.
I need you. You don't need me. I want you to need me. I want to be the one that makes you happy. The only one. I want to be all you need. I want to be all you want. I need to be your everything. But why would you choose me.